I need everything and want nothing at the same time.
So today it kind of hit me that even though my family love me they actually do care for me. My sister said she is going to miss me when I’m gone. And it’s not like we are little children any more, she is a mother and a wife, and I am me, by myself. It really got thinking that this is what life feels like. I don’t know why I only felt this today but it was just what I need at this moment in time.
Just one of my many thoughts today
One of the more helpful and insightful things I’ve seen about depression/suicide in the last couple of days.
Some days I feel like I’m not going to make it to 22, and even if I do I know I will never make it to 63